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 | Father Of Mine |  |
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Father of mine
tell me where have you been
you know i just close my eyes
my whole world disapeared
Father of mine
take me back to the day
Yeah, when i was still your golden boy
back before you went away
I remember blue skys
walking the block
I loved it when you held me hight
I loved to hear you talk
You woud take me to the movies
You would take me to the beach
take me to a place inside
that was so hard to reach
Father of mine
tell me where did you go
you had the world inside your hand
but you did not seem to know
Father of mine
tell me what do you see
When you look back at your wasted life
and you don't see me
I was ten years old
doing all that I could
It wasn't easy for me
to be a scared white boy in a black neighborhood
Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
with a five dollar bill
Yeah, i never understould you then
and i guess i never will
Daddy gave me a name
my daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
dady gave me a name
Then he walked away
my daddy gave me a name
Father of mine
tell me where have you been
I just close my eyes
and the world dissapeared
Father of mine
tell me how do you sleep
With the children you abandond
and the wife i saw you beat
I will never be safe
i will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
i will always be lame
Now im a grown man
with a child of my own
And i swear that im not gonna let her know
all the pain i have known
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
my dady gave me a name
Then he walked away
my daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
my daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
then he walked away
then he walked away
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| Everthing To Everyone | |
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You put yourself in stupid places
Yes i think you know its true
Situations where its easy to look down on you
I think you like to be the victum
I think you like to be in pain
I think you you make yourself the victum
almost every single day
You do what you do
Hey, you say what you say
You always try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
you know all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone
yeah you do it again
you always do it again
You say they taught you how to read and write
yeah they taught you how to count
I say they taught you how to buy and sell
your own body by the pound
I think you like to be the simple toy
i think you love to play the clown
I think you are blind to the fact
that the hand you hold
is the hand that holds you down
You do what you do
Hey, you say what you say
You always try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
you know all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone
spin around and fall down
do it again
You stummble and you fall
Yeah, why wont you ever learn
stand around and fall down
do it again
yeah, you stummble and you fall
I wounder if you will ever learn
why won't you ever learn
come on now
do that stupid dance for me
you do what they tell you to do
you say what they say
You try to be everything to everyone
you jump through the big hoop
you play all the right games
you try to be everything to everyone
spin around and fall down
do it again
You stummble and you fall
Yeah, why wont you ever learn
stand around and fall down
do it again
yeah, you stummble and you fall...
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| I Will Buy A New Life | |
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Here is the money that I owe you
Yes you can pay the bills
I will give you more
When I get paid again
I hate those people who love to tell you
Money is the root of all that kills
They have never been poor
They have never had the joy of
a welfare Christmas
(yeah) I know we will never look back (yeah)
You say you wake up crying
Yes and you don't know why
You get up and you go lay down inside
My baby's room
I guess I'm doing okay
I moved in with the strangest guy
Do you believe he actually
Thinks that I am really alive
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
(yes I will)
I know all about that other guy
The handsome with athletic thighs
I know about all the times before
with that obsessive little rich boy
They might mak you think you're happy
Yeah maybe for a minute or two
They can't make you laugh
No they can't make you feel
The way that I do
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
I know we can never look back
Will you please let me stay the night
No one will ever know
I will buy you a garden
Where your flowers can bloom
I will buy you a new car
Perfect shiny and new
I will buy you that big house
Way up in the west hills
I will buy you a new life
I will buy you a new life
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| One Hit Wonder | |
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loopy says he likes it up on top
yes he knows if he ever lets go
the pretty machine
will swallow him whole
he has no fear
he has no sense of shame
he will not stop
until everybody everywhere
wants to know his name
the one hit wonder
he likes the big time
he says he wants to live the kind of life
that will make the folks back home
all b*tch and whine
he knows if he ever even gets the chance
he'd sell his soul
to make the monster dance
they can't hurt you unless you let them
loopy says he sure
does like the good life
yes he knows all those women who scheme
are just pretty pictures in the pretty machine
he knows if he ever even gets to try
he will bite down hard to make the monster cry
he knows if he ever even gets the chance
he'd sell his soul to make the monster dance
they can't hurt you unless you let them
i will say it again
they can not hurt you unless you let them
loopy says he likes it up on top
he prays to god
and he hopes like hell
that the pretty machine
they will never fail
he has no fear
he doesn't really even have the time
he knows that the world is in love
with the pretty machine
(oh yeah...the pretty machine)
the one hit wonder
he likes the big time
he wants to live the kind of life
that will make the folks back home
scream, b*tch and whine
he knows if he ever even gets to try
he will bite down hard to make the monster cry
he knows if he ever even gets the chance
he will sell he'll soul to make the monster dance
he knows if he ever even gets to play
he will stomp like god to make the monster say
they can't hurt you unless you let them
the cannot hurt you unless you let them
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| Normal Like You | |
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They say you called me maybe yesterday
I don't even have the strength
To pick up the phone
You wouldn't even know me
Since you went away
The prozac doesn't do it for me anymore
You ought to
Take your medicine everyday
Be a good dog
Live in a wonderful way
Tell me why
You want to be blind
I do't want to be
Normal like you
I know now
Every day
I get closer
To the place inside where i can be normal too
I heard those stupid people
Talk about you again
I just have to laugh to keep from hurting bad
Their simple minds just can not seem to understand
You are neurotic and depressed
It doesn't mean that you're sad
You walk around oblivious to everything
You wear that party dress and black mascara
Like you're queen for the day
Tell me why
You want to be blind
I don't want to be
Normal like you
I know now
Every day
I get closer
To the place inside where i can be normal too
I will never be normal like you
You walk around oblivious to everyone
I see you walking slow and simple
Underneath the big black sun
Tell me why
You want to be blind
I don't want to be
Normal like you
I know now
everyday
I get closer
To the place inside
Where i can be complacent
I get closer
To the place inside
Where i can be sedated
I get closer
To the place inside
Where i can be normal too
Where i can be normal like you
Maybe normal like you
I can be normal like you
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| | SPARKLE AND FADE | |
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| Santa Monica | |
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I am still livin' with your ghost
Lonely and dreamin' of the west coast
I don't wanna be your downtime
I don't wanna be your stupid game
With my big black boots and an old suitcase
I do believe I'll find myself a new place
I don't wanna be the bad guy
I don't wanna do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just wanna see some palm trees
I will try and shake away this disease
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
I am still dreamin' of your face
Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away
I don't wanna be your good time
I don't wanna be your fallback crutch anymore
Walk right out into a brand new day
Insane and risin' in my own weird way
I don't wanna be the bad guy
I don't wanna do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just wanna feel some sunshine
I just wanna find some place to be alone
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
Yeah, watch the world die
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| Queen Of The Air | |
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There is a dream I used to have
My dream swallowed me whole
There is a bridge where i hate to go
That is where I first saw her
High on the bridge
I seen her red hair shining
There is a girl-I never knew
She was my Aunt Virginia
They said that she-
she just disappeared
They said I looked just like her
High on the bridge I seen her
Dancing, waving to me
She smiled and raised her head
Then she took to the air
There is a dream I can't escape
My memories come back to me
There is a hell that I cant escape
My memories come back to me
I heard the truth about it
Pictures and headlines hidden away
I heared the truth about my real mom
Jumping from the bridge that day
Now I know why ever since
I was 3 years old
Been having the same nightmare
Now I know the truth about Virginia
Why she took to the air
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| Heartspank Dollarsign | |
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time stops when the whispers blare
the voices drop hard but the eyes still stare
the world resolves into a death's head grin
because i walk with pride with a black girlfriend
my mom said not to bring her around
cause she's black
my family would put her down
i'll break the white-trash ties that bind
trade a love so pure
for a hate so blind
she said -- she said
forget the fact that i don't look like you
she said -- she said
you're possessed with a power
bigger than the pain
time stops when we lie so close
in my room where we share
what no one knows
from the day that we start
till the day that we end
i know, i know, i know now
we will never find a place
where we could just fit in
me and my black girlfriend
she said -- she said
fend for yourself -- your alone
she said -- she said
you are possessed with a power
bigger than the pain
a power bigger than the pain
heartspark dollarsign
heartspark dollarsign
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| You Make Me Fell Like A Whore | |
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I take your word like it was gospel
i'm so eager to please
yeah i like it when
you talk to me
it feels so good inside your shadow
it's the place i need to be
yeah i know i need to climb you
like a tree
there is this place inside
where all the good things die
sometimes i feel like a whore
sometimes i feel like a whore
i hate the way i am around you
i'm so nervous and wierd
sometimes i feel like i'm
breathing underwater
you treat me like i am on fire
like i'm something to eat
you make me hate what i see
when i see me
yeah i dream of the day
when i learn how to make you pay
someday i'll teach you to beg
someday, someday
yes i live for the day
when i can hear you say
you make me feel like a whore
yes i dream of the time
when i can make you mine
maybe then i'll feel half alive
more alive, so alive
there is this place inside
where all the good things die
you make me feel like a whore
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| | WORLD OF NOISE | |
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| Fire Apple Song | |
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Turn away from the pain you don't want
turning it down to avoid them when they call
strange words i heard a long long time ago
i wish i could go back to a summer time
i knew more than twenty years ago
can't lay between the sheets
we lie underneath the maple tree
now i can't smile
lying in the grass
with the wind around us
as we smile and talk
listen to your Grandma
sing those country songs
she'd tell us how the maple trees
turned to fire every four years
we'd sit in the grass
all summer just to watch
the autumn come around...
i can't smile
now i live alone and you're so far away
I call you once a year
just around the holidays
i still see you in the night
lying above me in the grass...
i can't smile
turn away from the pain you don't want
turning down to avoid them when they call
i can't believe the letter that says you died
i think i'm gonna go back to the house
in North Carolina
and lay in the backyard
get drunk and let the leaves
just bury me, bury me
i can't smile
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SO MUCH FOR THE AFTERGLOW
